it is night. i'm sitting on this chair. I hear the sound of a cat whining. I don not like the noise. I hear the disturbing sound of my mind:
be perfect
do not make a mistake
die...commit suicide.
I am 32 years old. I will be 33 years old in five month. the new corona virus has ruined my plan to achieve mext scholarship.
what am I gonna do now? what I Suppose to do now?
I just don't now.
I don't even know what will happen to the world?
I am not afraid of my future. I am afraid of children, family and peoples future.
will they starve to death?
what will happen? I'm afraid of getting sick and dying. I am more worried about others than myself.
what will happen?
I have been working on my plan of achieving MEXT scholorship for more than a year.
but know the new corona virus ruined my plan and dream.
I don;t know what to say. don't know what to do.
I don't know what is going to happen.
I'm afraid. not about myself. but for my family and other people.
I hop developed countries such as U.S.A, Japan,, China and etc can make a medicine for covid-19.