my life style has changed and not in a good way

I don't know why I'm being so weak. I remember running ten kilometers a day for ten years. 

maybe my life style is not healthy. maybe my diet is not nutritious. 

i drink too much tea for sure. 

I think I am depressed. and I don't exercise. 

and I experience a lot of stress. 

I think I have a heart issue. I want to go to a modern hospital in Tehran and see a professional doctor since four years a go.

I'm curious what the doctor will say.

it's spring and i have not seen the mountain and the river yet. that's weird.  this is not me!

I remember I went hiking every day for more than a year. even in the winter. even when it was snowing..,.