I had read Sisyphus written by alberto camus almost 10 years ago.
It is similar to me when study kanji. I have read about 2000 kanji more than 300000 times. and I still can not learn them.
lets talk about something else. even speaking about kanji make me sick. all I can say is I thin I must work on writing kanji instead of just looking at them. maybe that's the solution.
it's just not easy to write every day...because I do not have anything to say. I just want to write to learn writing in english.
when Honia came to my room last night he was surprised to see that I have written the whole walls of my room with a pencil. she consider it as a mischief and bad deed.
I am not sure if this would be enough or not but I really don't know what to say.