my life style has changed and not in a good way

I don't know why I'm being so weak. I remember running ten kilometers a day for ten years. 

maybe my life style is not healthy. maybe my diet is not nutritious. 

i drink too much tea for sure. 

I think I am depressed. and I don't exercise. 

and I experience a lot of stress. 

I think I have a heart issue. I want to go to a modern hospital in Tehran and see a professional doctor since four years a go.

I'm curious what the doctor will say.

it's spring and i have not seen the mountain and the river yet. that's weird.  this is not me!

I remember I went hiking every day for more than a year. even in the winter. even when it was snowing..,.

just blah blah as usual

I do not feel well writing in english on this weblog.

I wish I could write on a foreign blog.

I know that I'm not good at writing english. I think I make a lot of mistakes.  

I do not feel comfortable knowing that people are looking at me.

but I still must work on writing. so I have to keep practicing until I learn to write.

making mistakes is inevitable.

but if I keep writing everyday and every day I will be able to write well one day as I wish.

if you work on something everyday, you may be able to do the impossible.

I feel tense. I have to keep working on IFS. 

I don't know why I've been feeling so hungry  recently. I remember afew years a go if I did not eat for even one day I might not feel hungry.,

everything from MR.nothing

I'm really tired. it is too hard to work hard every day for almost 365 day a year and 15 hours every day.

I'm too tired...depressed.

I don't know why I have never been disappointed. there is too much pressure on me.

my brother drove to the garden of our son-in-law in my younger brother's car. I could go there but I decided to not go there because I did not want to spread the possible corona virus. but my younger brother who live with us can go there. why I should not go?

this is my ridiculous life. every day...just work...and nothing else.  

why am I afraid of death?

It's not rational and human being is not a simply just a rational creature.

dr keyvan mirhadi said american scientists has made a medication for corona virus

dr mirhadi is an Iranian scientist. he lives in america.

I have heard a really good news about corona. doctors in america have found a medicine that can help the patient of corona virus. the doctor said that the drug has passed second stage of the experiments. 82 patient received medication. the result was satisfactory.  the drug has no important side effect. we have to wait  until the next two steps. after that they are going to produce the medicine in a large quantity. 

his username on instagram is: "_dr.kay_"

the name of the medicine is hrsACE2.

you can find the article on the cell magazine.

that was a promising news. I hope this nightmare ends soon .

it is better to take practical steps along with reading

i was reading about an artist yesterday.  I think his name is Andy Warhol. he was a master at many fields...including: movie making, photography, voice recording, ...

I do not clearly  remember but today I was reading about Wolfgag Guethe. he was has the same characteristic.

I want to do the same. 

I always say that I do not have a good memory and I have problem in memorizing things. but maybe I do not have a big problem in this area.

when I was a journalist I remember that I have learned the lessons very well. I think the reason was that after studying the lesson, we practiced.

I think instead of just reading I have to take practical steps such as text analysis., review, writing, making video and etc...

when I analysis something, I am less likely to forget it.

I think working on writing in English is enough for tonight.